What I do

I've been thinking about what I do, and what I'm planning to become.... I went to work today, after almost no sleep all night, and was not up to dealing with tantrums and behaviors and chaos and noise and.... need I go on? Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love my job. I work with children with autism and I love the fact that I can go home knowing I helped someone in need and will hopefully improve their development. There is nothing more fulfilling than a job like that.... but sometimes you're just too tired. When I have days like these I try not to think of my future plan of getting certified as a special education teacher... because if I did, I would change my mind on the spot. I am not planning on making it my career, what I mean by that is I'm studying to become an English teacher (something I am very passionate about) but I do not want to give up the chance of teaching children in need. When you're good at something and you know you're helping people, it's not easy to give that up... even if it is straining. I try to think of the good days I have, and since they outweigh the bad, I'm sure I'm doing the right thing. For now I can only continue to help out and get the best out of my experience.... As long as I know I'm doing the right thing, I'll be fine for the time being. I love my job and I love what I do, but sometimes I just need a push to keep going....